Thorns

Alas! A day off!

Today is my catch up day from work. It's the day I do laundry and vacuum and make iced coffee and spend time with my cat and work on my blog and read my Bible and get on the elliptical and...

You get the idea.

Two revelations are heavy on my heart today.

Lately, as in this past year, the Lord has been teaching me that he wants to fill me. Fill me so he can empty me so he can fill me so he can empty me all over again. And then fill me some more. It's hard because it feels like a rollercoaster, with the ups and downs. But back in the day the Lord looked at what he'd made and said it was very good. There's joy in that. Sometimes it's good to want. To dance. To have sex. To smoke. To sleep in on Sunday. It's good to be in a place of want and need and need and want with your Savior.

The other thing I've been pondering is prayer. I think sometimes as believers we pray for other people, that their hearts would change concerning this thing or that thing. Lord, make that guy less of an asshole. Lord, give him a revelation. But what happens here, at least for me, is that while I'm praying for another person to change, I'm the one who's being changed instead.

In the book of Galatians it talks about bearing one another's burdens. It says in 6:1-2, "Brothers, if anyone is caught in any transgression, you who are spiritual should restore him in a spirit of gentleness. Keep watch on yourself, lest you too be tempted. Bear one another's burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ."

Lord, help me to respond to this calling with a willing heart.

I've been having these dreams lately of former things. They disturb my mind but have this odd way of kick-starting my day. Everyone has a thorn in their side.